As a child of divorced parents I bounced between two households. Longing for their unconditional love and approval, I became really great at the people pleasing game. Somewhere during that process I lost my identity. I lost my voice.
Growing up I believed that when I got married and created my own family unit, then I would finally have the unconditional love and approval I desired. Sadly, my first marriage ended in divorce and my dream fell apart. I was discouraged and disheartened. Realizing I could not count on love and approval from others, I began to search for it within myself.
At the time I enrolled dance classes. Little did I know that that dance would ignite a powerful spark within me. Through these classes I discovered my superpower; creative energy, the empowerment that comes from a relationship with my own body. I was awakened to my sexuality; a powerful part of my identity and I lived with confidence and passion attracting what I desired in life, and creating the life of my dreams!
Until the sexual assault.
In those moments I was paralyzed, I had no voice. Blaming my new-found empowerment/sexuality, I once again felt lost. I fell into a deep depression, underwent counseling for PTSD and ultimately attempted suicide as a desperate cry for help.
I was angry at God and tired of repressing my sexuality, and that’s when it hit me! Creative energy is my empowerment! Sexuality is part of my connection to God!
To better understand this realization, I began what led to 10-years of research. Through this life study I learned what this spiritual connection is. When I made the connection within myself, I finally found the unconditional love and approval I longed for. I once again became a powerful creator , utilizing my creative energy to magnetize what I desire in life.
Today I use my voice to share my story and findings, empowering others to harness their own creative energy and create the life they desire.